power

To assume that one has power over another person is ridiculous, to take
power away from someone else is pathetic.

Life could be described as once giant dance, each person you meet is a new
step for you to learn and enhance your ability with. In keeping with the
dancing theme some people feel compelled to be judges and criticize you
where available. These people will try to keep you down as much as they can
simply for their own benefit.

Recent events in the world have led me to question power and what power we
presume we hold over our lives. We are taught by some that what we give out
we get back in return (karma) while others tell us that we must look after
ourselves first above all else, for if we are looked after first, then we
can look after others next. As a child such notions can appear to be quite
confusing. Power is a presumed concept with strong emotional connotations.
Power can make innocent people do things they normally wouldn't while at the
same time add to the already decreasing grip on reality others already have.

A schoolyard shooting – why – because of power. A man felt suppressed,
picked on and ignored. Could he have sought help – yes, did he – no. Sure
there were already signs of this mans unraveling, he had acquired a
reputation with his peers as being mr question mark – he chose not to
socialize, he chose not to make friends, and the only relationship he
appeared to have were either only known to him, or only one sided.

A man who felt suppressed wanted to turn the tables and 32 innocent people
pay. He is dead and cannot face up to his crimes. In between killing people
though he managed to find time to post a package to NBC. In this package was
a plethora of media to me used and distributed for news purposes. Such
planning that had been put into this rampage is quite scary. He had brought
two guns a month earlier, he already had a package prepared for post, yet
during thing month or so he did not even manage to talk himself out of doing
such a thing. Odd. He did not express what he was doing to others, did not
speak to his family – nothing. For at least a month he spent his time
preparing and planing this event. , probably psyching himself up as the days
passed. Perhaps his rumored depression has added to this ending – in which
case 33 innocent people died that day, but perhaps not. Perhaps a fight to
gain perceived power back from those who you feel wield it went to far, and
thus the sudden rise to power went to this mans head. Then again, perhaps he
was just a bad egg.